A New Year

I'm sick and tired of all my music. And it's all of a sudden too. Just out of nowhere, one day I was listening to Cobra Starship, and I thought I would throw up if I heard one more second of it. So I skipped it. I proceeded to skip all 800 songs that will fit on my shitty ipod. Disturbed, I went to my itunes and skipped every song on that too. I didn't want to listen to ONE FUCKING SONG that I own. This scares me. Do I not like music anymore? I don't think that's possible; it's done so much for me, I could never turn my back on it now. My Chemical Romance basically saved me life. They made me who I am today, and I thank them by skipping their songs without another thought. I KNOW it's stupid, but I can't help but feel sorry for songs when I skip them. They don't deserve it. Their creators spent long hours debating which part they should take out and where the chorus should go and what would sound good at the end. Trust me, I know what it's like to write a song, and mine aren't even good. So by skipping a song almost every time it comes on shuffle, it's almost an insult to it's very meaning. And I committed that offense to every single one. I'm ashamed of myself.

Maybe it's because of the new year. Maybe unknown forces are telling me it's time for a new start. Of course, I still like my old music. Obviously, A Cursive Memory, my favorite band in the world, will stay, along with a few others. As for the rest of the songs, it's time for them to make way for a new generation. They'll return another day, but for now, it's out with the old, and in with the new.

Here's what my ipod currently has on it: a total of 189 songs. NICE!


I decided I needed to buy these albums:
--the white tie affair, walk this way
--valencia, we all need a reason to believe
--alesana, where myth fades to legend
--attack attack, suddenly came suddenly
--jack's mannequin, the glass passenger
--this providence
--we the kings, secret valentine EP

these aren't all exactly new, and they're all completely different from each other, but I think that was the goal I wanted to accomplish.

I also kept a few things to mix it up. Also, completely random, I think I was going crazy when I made this play list.

--the friday night boys, that's what she said EP (??? don't ask.)
--the maine, can't stop won't stop (I wasn't ready to part with it yet.)
--breathe carolina, it's classy, not classic
--ftsk, alpha dog under mater (still not sick of it! i don't care what everyone says, they will NOT be forgotten this time next year AP!)
--blessthefall, his last walk (my favorite screamo album of all time.)
--old fall out boy songs. seriously. WTF. I'm such a hypocrite, I say I hate FOB, and look at me now. eh, i can't help it, they just used to be so awesomely PUNK!
--AAR, When the World Comes Down. ( I think I just need my AAR. Always.)
--A CURSIVE MEMORY,CHANGES. (Note: If you have not bought this album yet, go do it RIGHT NOW. If you're into poppy, happy rock that's not completely ruined, you need to listen to a cursive memory. They represent everything I love about music, and they make me smile all the time. They make me GAY. Yes, I just used gay in it's alternate meaning. Anyway, check out acm, seriously. I could listen to their CD a million times and never get tired of it.)

So yes, that is what makes up my new and improved(hopefully) ipod. I'm sure I'll go into MCR or ATL or some other overplayed-on-my-ipod deprivation mode, but I'll try to deal with it and keep on listening to good old Jack's Mannequin or something. Oh, wait, I forgot. I also kept on The Academy Is, but I don't feel like going back. They're my third favorite band of all time; I mean come on, who can resist William Beckett's voice? INCLUDING guys? I think I would go insane if I was away from it.

This is sad. I'm the quintessential example of an emo girl literally addicted to music. Maybe it's because I'm straight-edge(and by straight-edge I don't mean sometimes I drink or smoke pot, but not a lot, so that makes me cool, but REALLY straight-edge)so I need something to be addicted to. I think all people need to be obsessed with something; it's healthy.

On that note, I'm going to go fill up my wall with more pictures from AP. My goal is to have it completely covered by the summer. See...healthy obsession!

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